Reality For Christmas
Let the tears fall like rain!
That’s how you work it out..again and again…
You have to face the pain
There is no running away.
Or the apain will stay.
I set fire to the house of pain
I will burn it down this house of pain
You have to walk inside of the pain
To find away to get through
It’s what you have to do
I set fire to the pain
I put it out when I let the tears rain
away from you
You want me to pretend that my sadness is a lie
That my sadness is my fault
That I deserve to be alone
You think I wnat your man because mine left me alone
You think that I am a threat cause I haven’t been taken yet
But you are so wrong
He has his mistress in my home mothering my children on this Christmas
While I am alone.
You don’t want to hear about this
You say that I am feeling sorry for myself
You say me pain is my weakness
that I just need to get over this
But the truth is this.. you just don’t want to hear about it!
You want me to pretend that Christmas is never sad
That sadness doesn’t exist..
You just want this
To believe in the ideal
To not see what is real
To not see that there are others in the world
Others than you…who’s Christmas is real!
That I need to think postive
But the truth is this…you say this because you don’t want to think of others
Others who have less than you..
What is it all about..if only this..THE SPIRIT OF CHRISTMAS!
Seeing others other than ourselves
Other than us the immediate world..the big pirture..to see others as yourself as us
To move through sadness it has to be faced and seen not ignored..like you would ignore me.
The reality is this there are others that don’t have love for Christmas
There are others worse off than me..that don’t have food
That have loved ones passing away this very Christmas
But you want the tinsle.. you want the over decorated tree
So you can turn a blind eye on people like me.
At my gym today a big huge muscular man..looked like he was about to cry..I could see it as plain as day..I couldn’t help but ask him what was wrong. I had seen him there many times..to look at him you would think he was very healthy and fit..but looks can be decieving.
He told me of his physical pain..his car accident over a year ago..how he was almost killed..his friend was killed..He himself sustained nerve damage to most of his body. Of course you can’t see nerve damage. He told me he was fighting it through his workout as the workouts eventually made the pain less..He told me about the cold nerve pain running through his body and about how the cold weather..made it so much worse. I felt deeply for him..I could see how much he hurt..He said he was sorry for telling me about it..he said he wasn’t as tough as he looked..but I said to him.. yes you are stronger than you look.. because I know how hard it was for you to tell me..if ever..I said to him..if ever you need to talk about your pain to make it less somehow..tell me..I understand pain.